3/14/10

chriscaresforcancer: Awe - inspiring

chriscaresforcancer: Awe - inspiring

Awe - inspiring

I am reading a book today by Patsy Clairmont. I had to pause where I am after she asked the readers "What is the most awe inspiring thing you have ever witnessed?" I am sure there have been thousands of things that have created awe and wonder in this heart of mine, but one immediately caused tears to fill my eyes. In my 51 years what stands out the most is the memory of looking into Doug's eyes after he learned his cancer was terminal and seeing absolute peace. I was struck with awe in a way I'll remember all my days. His blue eyes could have been tranquil water on a summer day, so calm and so bright; and as I immersed myself in them I knew that His God was REAL!! It was a "beyond a shadow of a doubt experience." This was not human strength, or a facade he wore for my benefit. His faith had been severely tested as he faced death, and thought of all that he would miss in this life, and it never wavered. I remember thanking God aloud for the gift this peace was to Doug and to me, even as I marveled in the wonder of it. Many of us know that we are in God's hands, but Doug rested peacefully in those hands. I am so thankful that God gave me a front row seat to the transforming work in Doug's life; and I will never forget the awe of seeing the Spirit's presence in those eyes. It is comforting to know that the same Holy Spirit resides in me and will uphold me no matter what my future holds. Today marks the 3 year anniversary of the day we learned he had brain tumors. How perfect that God would stir up such a sweet memory on this day. To God be the glory!!